note to self.

whoever thought being a grown up was cool was seriously mistaken. oh wait, that was me once upon a time. oops.
don't get me wrong, there are definitely perks of still being in my early 20's and graduated. 
and the whole not-going-to-school thing, well.... i'm kinda digging. i enjoy not having to take tests, write pointless papers till the wee hours of the morning, and study my brains out for hours on end in Harold B. The bright side of working is when I get off a stressful dayk, I'm done for the day and don't have to think about it till I get back the next morning or have a WHOLE weekend without stress. Now, that is nice.  
Upside of still being in school? You don't have to face the real world quite yet and find a full time job (and with this economy, good luck to ya). I am grateful to have found a job though so i can make the dough and stay busy (cause let's get real, i went insane those first 3 weeks back to provo without a job). 
i miss walking around a campus, seeing my friends randomly, and kindof living the easy life. And yes, I even miss Harold sometimes. We had quite the relationship during my college career. Starting with the oh-so-wonderful periodicals and escalating my way to the cool kids club on floor 5. yes, those were some fun days. staying with friends till the music came on and kicked us out, only to go outside and be so happy and full of life after a successful library sesh.
confession:about 90% of my time in the library was spent doing something more appealing than homework....distracting other friends, sharing earplugs to listen to some good tunes (john mayer of course), play games (geocache in the library was always an adventure), facebook it up (which included messaging the people you are sitting at the same table with, pathetic i know), but anyways you get the idea. anything seems a whole lot more appealing than doing homework no matter what. but i enjoyed going to Harold for the most part, and not meaning to mislead you, I was productive. But I always had a good time.
my brain is scattered and flustered. can't you tell? 
i feel like this is a lose-lose situation. regardless of where you are, you want to be elsewhere. where you currently are, is not enough. does that make sense? it does in my head.
but ALL of that being said, life is good. it really is. 
it will always be full of ups and downs so buckle down and enjoy the ride, right?
thanks for listening whoever does. 


Meggara said...

i read this! i know the feeling, i miss school but both sides have perks so lets just love the easy life of a graduate! haha

Janey said...

Where do you work? you me and em need to get together since we are all still in Provo.

Your favorite sister said...

I read your blog my dear.

gini said...

i know what you mean. i miss those college days sometimes. ps i love that picture at the top of your blog. i knew you when you looked like that... :)

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